Yes, I know I am only floating on the current here, somehow keeping my chin above water.
Yes, I know I need to sign up for my college classes.
But, I got really scared today so I stopped thinking about what I already know and started to wonder who I was going to trust in the coming year
When I am 300 miles away from home.
I did not like where my mind took me.
I don’t like changes.
I had a dream we got married and stayed here forever, and yes that is scary but the worst part was
That I was happy.
I don’t think risk essentially means your life will be better.
That is the job of the preferable outcome.
Why is it you notice our problems now, when I have moved past them, when I am struggling to keep my chin above the waves.
Instead of four months ago.
When they could have been solved in both our favors.
Instead you are burrowing up from below my only steady foundation.
I can see you in your vermin hole.
(don’t forget i tried to follow the light down it once upon a time)
I can see you trying to take him away from me.
But just because you lost the love lottery, doesn’t mean you can tear up everyone else’s tickets.
- tobehonestt: was there a point to this conversation by chance
- posipathxC: idk i forget why i imed you
- posipathxC: but if you want you can comeover
How I would push my fingers through
Your mouth to make those muscles move
That made your voice so smooth and sweet
Now we keep where we don’t know
All secrets sleep in winters clothes
With one you loved so long ago
Now he don’t even know his name” —In the Aeroplane Over the Sea by Neutral Milk Hotel